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nvm screw my gay last post.
Who needs a man when i’m going to fucking fashion school!
I literally have everything I need. Holy FUCK! FIDM IS GOING TO BE SO MUCH FUN!
Less than a month till I start, I’m more than ready for this.
First in my family to graduate highschool cause I wanted my education let alone a semester and a half early, and now the first in my entire family to go to college! I had to fucking fight so fucking hard for this too! My father literally told me word for word
“You will go to community college and you’ll be fine”
The norm in my family is to grow up, get a job, get a girlfriend and start a family. Morals in family, values and growth are strong, though standards in education can sometimes be forgot. I wanted my education, and I wasn’t going to take no for an answer, and after a year of processing and teaching my parents of college, the constant fighting, tears (literally, we’d have all out shouting battles because of it), its finally here.
Not only was the idea of college foreign, doing it all within fashion didn’t help the situation.
But now its less than a month a way. July 9th and I start at FIDM <3
He came back. He still has feelings as do I. Exactly what I wished for.
But I’ve met someone different, I make him happy, he makes me smile.
He originally gave up on me but the situation was respectable. You can’t force yourself upon someone or have someone force feelings for you when overcoming personal issues and family conflicts, he didn’t find it fair to hold me through it. He needed his time alone to grow and overcome, as we all do. We ended cause he needed it, it was for the best.
Though I still can’t help but feel that he left me. I still couldn’t feel anything but hurt, not being enough for him to want me to be there for him, even though I fought for it.
Its been a while since I’ve been in a relationship, and its been an even longer while for me to feel the comfort to say yes to someone asking me official. I’ve already rejected 8+ guys since the beginning of this year, I’m scared of commitment, I’m scared of relations with labels other than friends. I’m scared to open up. And for me to have the comfort to say yes, it takes a lot.
I’ve moved on, cause he’s taught me how to open up because its whom I am and not something to be protected. As you did. That comfort for a relation is there, thats not something that can easily be walked away from, nor is what we had.
I’m at a cross, you both make me happy, and both in very different ways. Both provide a future. One will allow me to grow through my immaturity of my age and be there with me, as the other will pull me through to a new independence past my years, either way I see success not only within the relation, but within myself and growth with the other.
I don’t know what I want, either way I’m hurting someone that makes me happy, either way I’m hurting myself. Being single has kept me stable, I’m strong in my independence cause I keep it as MY independence. Maybe it’d be best if I just kept both as friends and give myself the time to myself to just focus on school. I start in less than a months time, and as soon as I start, I start planning my basically permanent move to LA.
Maybe it’d be best if I didn’t have the rollercoasters of relations attached to this all.